I first wrote about finding a lump in my breast here. At my first appointment with the radiologist, the results from the mammogram and ultrasounds were inconclusive. The radiologist told me the lump looked like a cyst, but part of the cysts didn’t behave as it should, so he couldn’t call it a simple cyst. I had to come back in three months to see if there were any changes.
I went back for my three-month follow-up ultrasound and nothing had changed. I think the radiologist expected it would be gone, but I can’t be sure of that because he didn’t tell me what he thought. I wasn’t sure what to do with this information, which was nothing new, so I asked him bluntly, “Can you tell me I don’t have cancer?”
He said, “No.”
In that moment, my mind started going into “I must take action” mode.
I wanted to know more. Why can’t you tell me I don’t have cancer? I though this looked like a cyst. Can we take it out? Can we have it aspirated? Can we do a biopsy? What can we do?
The radiologist looked at me as if I were an idiot and said something along the lines of this:
Although a cyst is obviously present, the unknown part of the cyst is as small as a half of a pea. It would be hard to get an accurate biopsy reading. Come back in 6 months. We’ll do another ultrasound every six months for two years. After two years, if nothing has changed, then I can tell you that you are cancer free.
That doesn’t work for me.
I’m not going to sit around hoping there is nothing wrong, when A. A family member is going through the repercussion of breast cancer right now, B. My friend Julie told me that three of her friends were basically told the same thing and two of those women are currently going through chemo for breast cancer, and C. I know that I can have that thing taken out of my breast if I go to a different Doctor. Why wait two years to know if I’m healthy or find out that I’m not!?!
Not gonna happen.
So I called the doctor who performed my hysterectomy. (If you’re interested, I wrote about that here.) I trust her and her “team”. I called for a referral to get a second opinion. She said we’ll see you here the day after tomorrow.
Yep, I’m going to see her tomorrow and have an advanced mammogram. She said I will not leave the office without a clear plan that will give me the answers I need within a month or so.
That’s what I’m talking about! I’m not waiting around wondering and worrying–we’re taking action!
As I mentioned in my hysterectomy piece, if you have a bad feeling about your doctor or feel he/she does not respect you or is not being open and honest with you, then leave as fast as you can and don’t go back!
Wish me luck tomorrow!