Being a parent is life altering and challenging at times; but at the end of the day I know one thing for sure: I love my girls more than anything in the world! I feel so fortunate to have them in my life. I want to be the best mom that I can be every day and sometimes that means loving myself a little more.
There were times when the girls were infants when I felt isolated and stuck at home. I should have made more effort to do things for myself, but I felt guilty. I felt that if I took time out for me, I was being selfish. I’m seeing more now that’s not true. A sitter now and then wouldn’t have been so bad. In fact, it probably would have been really good for everyone.
At times, (like our house flooding) I feel overwhelmed by my domestic duties; I don’t feel like cleaning, cooking, organizing, refereeing, carpooling, and doing laundry non-stop. Sometimes I’m tired or I just need a break—Then I think… I’m really lucky!
Life is so amazing and the years fly by too fast. I remember watching our babies sleep, thinking I would do anything for them, and I would—anything. They melt my heart and make me smile every day. The power of that love is amazing! I know my husband feels the same way. They are so innocent and they grow so fast. I love watching our girls’ laugh, play together, learn, and follow their curiosities and dreams. They are still so mesmerized by everything new. I wish they could feel like that forever.
I may not always make the right choices, I may raise my voice at times, I may get frustrated, impatient, or irritated, but when I look at my girls and think about what they mean to me—I burst with love! I feel so lucky to have the honor of being their mom. Parenting is a balancing act, but as long as I stay positive and take a little break for myself every once in a while, my internal sun is shining.
I read a quote once that said, “Look to the sun and the shadows will fall behind you.” I love that!
Can you relate? Do you make enough time for yourself? Do you have guilt issues? Have you looked in your kids eyes today and told them how much they mean to you and how much you love them? I’m on my way to do that right now. Have a great day!